I thought everything was going good. You said I was the prettiest a million times. You said you don't like the others at work because you have me. You said you missed me alot even if we only saw each other a few minutes ago. You told me that you wished I can be with you even if it is against the rules. You said you can't get over my sweetness and wanted more, You told me that you loved me and that it is true.
But what happened to all those sweet memories that we shared? The sweet messages, the endearments, the long calls, the caring gestures and the forbidden sweetness. In one instant, you suddenly became very cold to me. You dont answer my calls, don't reply to my messages, tries to avoid me and talk to me apathetically. I thought that maybe you are just like this because it is that time of the year where you do fasting from everything material in the world. I kept on thinking for reasons of this change of behavior from you. But little did I know that this change has a deeper reason in it, a reason that will cause to much pain and scar in my heart forever.
You assured me multiple times before that you and my friend are just friends. That you don't like her because she is crazy and it is I that you love. You told me that she is only your friend while I am your girlfriend. I can still remember the day when I asked you about your relationship with her. You looked at me straight in the eyes and told me that you are just friends and you love me soo much. I thought it was true. It felt true since you were saying those things while looking deep in my dark brown orbs, your eyes shining with sincerity.
But something unexpected happened. You introduced your sister to us when you pass by. After a few minutes, my friend came running out smiling from ear to ear, telling everyone that you introduced my friend to your sister as your girlfriend. You just don't know how much it hurt me. My world crumbled, everything went cold and I became numb. I summoned all the self control that I can have during that day. I smiled to everyone to hide the pain in my heart. It was like all the laughter and the sweet memories that we had fade away, it meant nothing more to you.
Am I just a toy for you? Was it all just a game for you? Did you love her from the start? If you do, then why were you sweet to me and led me on? Did I make a big mistake to trust you with my love? Am I that boring for you? I trusted you when you said you love me. I trusted her since she knows that I like you alot. But both of you betrayed me. Maybe someday I will be able to forgive you both, but I will definitely wont forget what you did. I just hope that she treats you well, just like how I treated, cared, loved and understand you. Thank you for the lesson that you gave me and thank you both for breaking my heart.
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